/// omen
POLAR.GODS
like a crazy sphere with all its
painful current magnetic fields
spiraling inside causing chaos
and electricity flowing over and above and
sometimes beyond
and i stood there
in the middle
got shot by the current and
lay down dead and
stood up again
over and over.
a creature
charged with
light blue electric in
aeons of milisecond
neons of nanosecond
created
bigger and bigger
while its solid whole of matter
[the body]
becomes smaller and smaller
less afraid
lesser tolerance
better awareness and
higher sense of notice
the bipolar Gods
once took me away
giving me shelter and a home
anger as my throne
fight was my might
devil was my light
bipolar Gods told me
life was my sensibility
the more sensitive
the less sense i receive
i became senseless
i became nonsense
i became what i was
my own God
one end at the other
and the other the next minute
i lost balance
i lost equality
i didnt believe in justice
because justice was in my fist
and i lay dead
on my bed.
for 4-5 years
wondering
God is teaching me something.
and i lay dead in my
bed
shedding tear
i shed all the tears
that never rolled for years
and i wondered to myself
God has taught me something.
pain is the only way
i will endure living.
pain is the only
answer
to my being.
pain was the reason
why i am.
pain was His message.
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